another week.

It's strange how seeing Brian energized me and gave me some sort of hope for my life alone. I feel like I can make it another week. I rode my bike for 2 hours yesterday. I cooked up a bunch of food to graze on for the week. I think it was the first time I made pasta since I moved out. I didn't get that much school work done but I really don't care. It felt good. Tonight I would like to do something else fun -- maybe go see a movie or go dancing. I won't do either but I like to think that if I really wanted to, I could, I would. I can dream of days when that will all be possible. We were just discussing the owning of dogs. I wonder if someday I will own a dog. That reminds me of this cute little song by Luce:

I had a dream, it was a good dream
you were there and so was I
we were so happy
I did not want to open up my eyes
and we were driving down a road
it was a long one
there were signs all over saying
the signs said "welcome to your life"
I looked over and you were smiling
you had a great big smile going
you turned to me, you turned and you said
"all your life, all your life, I got your back"

so if you want to try
we'll make it you and I
we'll never be alone
we'll buy a dog and bring him home
he'll jump up on the bed
we'll be the best of friends
I think that we should try
I picture you and I...

I had another dream
I know you think, "how convenient"
but I swear it's the truth
we were there, yeah, I was me and you were you,
we had a good long life on this planet
when we died we went to heaven,
saw that god was really Elvis!
anyway, our souls were in the right place
our souls were in the right place..

so if you want to try
we'll make it you and I
we'll never be alone
we'll buy a dog and bring him home
he'll jump up on the bed
we'll be the best of friends
I think that we should try
I think that we should try

and we'll take him on walks with us everyday
(underneath the summer sun)
he can ride in the back of our car when we go away
with his head outside of the window frame
and his tongue out

it's a miracle that we're even here and alive
let's buy a dog and bring him home.