normalcy

Went to the doctor and it's just a bruising. It could still be a month before normalcy.

Exhausted this week. Drained. Another week of slipping back.

 I'm fearful that I may actually break down in tears on the table tonight. I've feared it before but keeping it together usually isn't so difficult. But the way my body aches, it's going to be challenging. I sort of want to dig my nails into the ground and scream. How can I possibly hold it together if the rain starts to pound? The breathing is laborious.

I just want to be held.