spreadsheets

I'm not doing very well about updating my man spreadsheet. What? Yes, I have one. It's not that I'm all crazy and going out with 2 guys in a night or anything. I have only really dated a couple guys in the last couple months. The thing is that I have this long list of people I'm in conversation with and although I can keep track of them right now, my friends cannot. Plus. it would be nice to be able to refer back later. But updating the spreadsheet means I have to take time away from the actual process of dating/talking. I know, it would make it better in the long run but I'm sort of a short-term thinker these days.

But  I digress, I am in a fun and wonderful online relationship with a guy from Canada. He is the one that I want to date. He is intelligent and kind and we share a love of wine, music, and the outdoors. He's divorced and we can talk frankly about that baggage. We are in very similar situations. But he lives in Canada. Why? Grrr. But for now, I am not going to focus on that. For now, I am going to enjoy our "dates" filled with laughter and wine and great, great conversation. I am so tempted to jump in my car and go have dinner with him. Or maybe I should do what my lovely friend suggested and Skype. Ugh, that sounds so... wrong.

I have a 2nd date with a guy right here in Minneapolis on Saturday but I feel slightly uneasy about it. He's an interesting man. See how I used man when I typically say guy or boy? That's because he's 42. Age doesn't exactly matter to me except that I think we may be after very different things at the different stages in our lives. Plus, he's a total city snob. We went to Kobe, which I still stand by, and he made fun of it mercilessly. I poked fun at him too, though... I called him a snob. And we do share the same loves of the beach, Murakami, and music. But still.

[Not in reference to the 2 guys above but to the variety of others on my list.]
What is with our society anyway? Is there anyone between the ages of 30 and 40 that has not been diagnosed with ADD or anxiety disorder? Seriously? WTF! No offense to anyone who believes they have these disorders, but I think they are just made up terms to label people who are struggling with the things that happen to people. For some reason we have this notion that struggle should be avoided. Bullshit. And I hate that people use these disorders as an excuse for fucking everything. Ha! That sounded like "fucking everything" as in doing it with everything. That's not what I meant, but hey that fits too.

2 more conditions that I don't think I need in a mate are 1. DUI problems and 2. crazy jealous. If you get a DUI, remain sober because of previous DUI's, call me crazily after our first date, or start messaging me after I say I'm not interested, you go to the very bottom of the pile. I may not be a wonderful catch, but I want better than that. Thank you.

Back to ignoring that spreadsheet and several others.