dork

That last post was entirely dorky, I know. It was also littered with horrifically chosen stylistic choices and grammar errors. I hate reading my writing these days. When will I ever get myself back in a class where good writing habits are required. I need to be whipped into shape. And there it goes again. Do you see my lack of "?" where it belongs? Ugh.

I thought I should quickly, with the smidgen of free time that I have, give you a better idea of who this guy is that I was talking about in my last post. His name is Kevin. Yes, I am using his real name. Is that so wrong? He's 9 years older than me and skinny. Those are 2 things that I have said A LOT, because they are 2 things that I have hang-ups about. The age alone is actually not a big deal, except that it means that he's at a point in his life where he is beyond family and such. The skinny part is huge because, well, I am just not typically into that. I like a little something to grab onto and a little something to surround me. I'm not exactly a tiny girl but I like to feel somewhat small when with a man.

But beyond those things, he is what I said he was in the last post: witty, fun, passionate, and a joy to get messages from. However, I am cautious. I have to be. I know that I don't need someone else. I definitely don't need to settle for anything less than total, complete love. Luckily he feels the same way. So I'm dating him but not exclusively, not balls to the wall. Well, that's not entirely true. I am trying to let go of my preconceived notions and I am putting everything on the line when I am with him. But I've learned a lesson through this dating process and that is that I can't just drop everything for a guy that I barely know. He may be saying some of the sweetest words today, but tomorrow he could be marrying some other chick.

It just feels good to once again connect with someone. No matter the outcome, I like this Kevin guy. He makes me realize that there are an array of choices out there. He is makes me think... and not JUST about relationships and who I am. Overall, he keeps me on my toes. That's a great thing for me. Mark that down as another thing I require in my next mate. Oh wait, I haven't given any indication of what I want in my next mate until that comment. I should create a list of musts and wants, don't you think?

Musts:
funny
witty and/or smartass
kind
affectionate
totally open and up-front
good with words
into being healthy on some level
enjoys the outdoors
likes food
drinks (yes, this is a requirement. I can't help it. I like my wine and company to share it with)
interested in traveling

Nice to haves:
good smile
good, slow, sexy kisser
good hugger
intellectual
loving by nature (likes to hold hands, tickle, kiss my neck grrrrr.)
likes music
likes to read

This list needs work but I need to get my ass to bed. I have long day ahead. Man, I miss this writing thing. Sigh.