after show hangover

I have the after Social D hangover. I feel sad and stupid. I had fun but I'm embarrassed by myself and my utter lack of tact. When did I become such a tacky human being? I know what I want right now and it's not coming and I'm so very nervous. I'm so very nervous about what the good people will think. I saw some photographs of couples. I saw some couples hugging. I saw some pictures of babies. The loneliness lives on. It's so very difficult to love and not be loved. But that's just the pitiful hangover taking over my mind, pushing me in the wrong direction. I always feel so wrong, these days. These long days and misguided nights.